::goddess of les innocent cemetary::

bangkok100

2006-02-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

oh yea finally i'm blogging again after a month!! =)

i can't remember much of what i did.. guess was pretty much the same but one event!!

i went t bangkok 2 thursdayss ago right after my comms mid terms! and i had only booked the tickets a couple of days before the flight! hehz..

purpose: Bangkok100 Rock Festival!! muahahaha.. it was damn dope!! stayed at this guest house tt costs us only S$10 per night, with air con but common bathroom. i went there with mel and weiliang and this guy called kennedy.. leonard, jeremy and john = all mel's friends.. came the next dayy.. and weiliang's girl sarah came on saturday night.

it was a 6day trip.. and was a completely different experience from the previous one! hehz.. it was beer beer and more beer! singha and chang!! hehz.. but i think the worst was the smoking part... i think all my wed nights smoking in total couldnt add up to what i smoked in that 6daysss..

went clubbing on fri nite at RCA.. and i was the only one.. stuck outside.. coz i'm not yet 20.. kennedy helped me borrowed an ID.. smt i havent done in a long long time! clubbing is actually better there than in sg.. too bad i didnt' really know the rest of the guys at tt time. so i didn't drink much.. fugg man~~ the bottles are dirt cheap at $20..

yea the Rock Fest was DOPE!!!! i was too short to see anything.. nor breathe fresh air.. but it all didn't matter!!!! day 1 they had :DEUS, IanBrown, Franz Ferdinand and Oasis. Day 2 was: Snow Petrol, Maxximo Park, Placebo and one more i cant remember alr.. i think Franz was the best among all that I'd seen.. the guys told me Placebo was even better.. but i missed it.. coz i went back after the 2nd band on the 2nd dayy.. i have so much to talk about it.. but hmm~ wait till i've gotten the picts from mel..

well~ i shopped ard alone at chatuchat.. and went back to the guest house alone too.. coz the guysss lost me.. mann~~ travelling is cool!!! i want to do it more often!!

oh man!! give me more happening things to do!!!!

:shittiest entry::

2006-01-16T04:44:00.000+08:00

ahhh~ its been some time since i blogged.. never had the time, nor mood to do so.. coz the previous time i blogged about my christmas.. and the entry simply disappeared... damn knn pissed..

it's liike bloody hell 445am.. and i can't sleep (coz i woke up 12hours ago), and i've got 830am class later! knn! and i'm freakin.. grrrr dunno what to sayy..

anw.. flashback.. NYE was fun! more than just fun!! coz i got drunk an hour after the party started.. reached sentosa slightly before 12 and got in slightly after 12.. was drenched in beer.. inside and outside.. literally. coz i drank too much.. and got splashed too much... yea~ that's what happens when there's freeeee floww!!

anw.. post NYE.. 2006 sucked.. coz school started.. and how ffun can it be.. i sorta slightly recalled blooging about NYE.. but screw it.. all my friends know tt i repeat my stories a thousand and one timeS!! =\ thanks to all of them who bother themselves to nod to what i'm constantly repeating..

hmm~~ have been hanging out with this bunch of ppl.. namely, jeremy, yiwei, thane, robin, lili, melvin, and jeremy and thane and yiwei and robin and lili.. and .. tralalalala~~

i miss xiujuan.. damn long nv see u alreadyyyyyyyy!!! and yea.. met up w chrys lately tooo!! its always fun with the girlsss.. haven't clubbed with them in a long time toooo.. =(

i sorta.. lost a little interest in clubbing.. although the last time i clubbed was last monday at zouk.. coz tuesss was a public holidayy.. must make it clear.. lest ppl think i'm clubber-siao for clubbing on a freaking mondayy.. hehz..

hmm~ and lett me think whats new i want to share.. oh ya~ i've attended.. for the past 2 weeks.. only 1 lesson d entire week.. i dont know what's wrong with me.. but the frequency is as good as me going to jazz band.. and considering that i'd clubbed once, smoked shisha 2 times and played mahjong 3 times last week.. plus.. not forgetting that my major occupation in life right now is being a student.. ahem~ undergrad.. hehz.. i think i'm not doing my job very well.. =\

wilson encouragingly told me that i only need a "gazillion" A plusses to get my GPA to 3.7 - which is the ahem~~ DEAN'S LIST!!! so i decided that it's not very exciting coz i'm going to end up getting some shit GPA due to the fact that SMU doesn't have a gazillion modules for me to take..

i want to post some picts up sooooon... then u guys judge if i've become prettier!! yay!! tralalalalala.. everyone tells me that i've gained weight.. and tt freaking mediacorp is asking me to lose weight.. which i am not going to do... coz they are paying me shit.. =\

okayy.. i forgot who, but someone told me i'm not supposed to complain about pathetic paysss after we've decided to accept it. which makes alot of sense to me.. coz eventually, it only reflects how dumb u are to have accepted it in the first place.. haiz.. i'm a dumb dumb.. =\

think i'm high on fatigue.. no.. rather on the desire to plop down into my pillow and snore my

dawn away.. feel like stealing the car keys and go ard for a spin and empty the petrol tank.. =\ i'm crazyy.. tralalalala...

todayy at just band we had to learn a new song called disefinando.. spelling error prone right now.. and yup.. it is a portugueseee song.. and i was given a set of lyrics that has direct translation.. and we spent most of the time laughin at the "no link" lyrics.. something like.. "if someone sings out of tune.. it doesnt me that they dont have a heart".. okayy.. LAUGH!

i'm going to ebay now.. and spend some of my expected income from ang pow tts supposed to come in 2 weeks time! shall credit on my pathetic bank acct first... and maybe get a couple of negative feedback from enthusiastic ebaysters for late payment.. tralalalala...

thanks for taking time to read my shittiest entry... muacks.. i love u all!

::dec holsss::

2005-12-31T05:45:00.000+08:00

dec hols' really short.. but sweet so far... started off with a rock n rolling birthdayy celebration.. kickass zoukout session.. couple of duper cool clubbing nights at Zouk n MOS.. multiple money losing mahjong games at yiwei's, robin's and darwin's place.. hanging out w a new bunch of jeremy's dudess.. with sad occasional painful, tedious, torturous and "plan foiling" filming..

this hols had been fruitful.. celebrated christmas at my aunt crystal's place... invited xiujuan and serena over as well.. i was funnnn! first time exchanging gifts.. i never had the patience and heart and money to get stuff for anyone.. hehz.. joined thane, lili, jeremy n yiwei at sentosa after which concluded my evening beautifully.. best christmas i can remember..

went wilson's place for his party last week. w dechao, xiujuan n fabian .. playyed risk.. was fun!! and went zouk after tt..

had filming this week.. was torturous... went to OCH.. thank God they changed it to day time filming.. otherwise.. hmm~ u all know la..

and i'd been hanging out w the dudes in d evening after filming.. playing mahjong... more mahjong.. been drinking and smooookin too much.. =\ hmm~ dudes.. referring to thane, robin, jeremy, melvin, yiwei.. w LILI!!! hehz.. new babe i got to know thru them..

took a couple of pictures.. shall post them up when i'm less lazy.. well~ i hope everyone had a great christmas and new year too... tralalalalala~ i'm happy.. very happy!

::updates updateS::

2005-12-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

I've had the best of the best birthday this year!! haha... I love everyone who came and who made a difference that day!

hmm~ holidayss been good so far! sustained a couple of injuries while at work last week.. and this is freaking me out.. the warehouse scene is going to take place at Old Changi Hospital and would end around 3 to 4am for a couple of dayss.. that's shit! =(

went for zoukout 2dayss back.. with jeremy.. and his friendss.. mel, thane, robin, weiliang, toon. it was a hell of a party! haha.. really had fun.. but the party started for me only after a couple of drinks at our mini party in the carpark.. w another bunch of school teachers.. it was damn cool! muahahaha... and then it started raining when piggy hanping came to look for me. was damn nice.. the sky looked really pretty.. overlaid with glitter as the laser shone thru the raindrops.. shit i feel bimbotic.. but screw it.. its really nice..

then i stepped on smt "pokey".. and i plucked it out.. and wobbled back to the car with weiliang's help and mel's slippers.. btw.. worth mentioning.. weiliang is such a fair pretty boy with nice.. long fingersss~~ ahha.. ehz~~~ screw his hair and his nails thou.. too long..

yup.. and i've been rotting at home these past 2 dayss.. which is what i've been doing when i dont have work lately.. i'm so lazyyyy..tralalalala.. i'm so high..on boredom..

::ill at the wrong time::

2005-11-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

Well, I've fallen ill.. pretty serious this time round.. and at a goddamn good timing! =\ Both work and exams starts next week... which is in 2 dayss.. and the bad thing is.. i have not revised yet... trying to but.. =(
past few weeks was frantic for everyone in SMU.. for some.. it ended only this week.. And it wont end till the last paper next fri - 2nd Dec.. the day after 1st dec -*hint hint!!
it is bad doing 3000word essays and or reports... and it is worst when a couple of them are supposed to be handed up ard the same time on d same dayy.. bla bla~ reports.. presentations.. tests..

sad thing is.. i think i am caught in this whirlpool of shit! and seem to have no time for anything else but project.. stayed over in sch a couple of times.. bla bla~ and i thought we are supposed to feel a little triumphant.. satisfied.. happy.. or at least relieved that they're over... but it doesnt seem to be this way right now.. I know for sureee i'm going to fail my bloody Management Accounting... and pray tt i scrap thru Biz law... And I suddenly dont know what I am talking about... hmph!!!

AHHHhhhH~ I want to pLAYYYY!!! I feel so bloody deprived!! depravedddd.... thank God i've got Chrystle Kuek.. hehz.. she passed me all her Law "Mugger Notes".. rather.. i got hold of the thumbdrive n DIY the transfer... muahahahaha.. i feel less hopeless for my biz law! I wished I've gotten her notes earlier...hmm~ could even score a couple of class participation points...

i sound so mugger too... well~ just now i went downstairs to see d doc.. but after waiting for 2hoursss the doc's still not back. Felt bloody cheated by the nurse i sorta weeped... n my bro is so funny.. he tried to give me some "pi pa ko" d black black but damn nice syrup for cough.. but our pi pa ko is hardly used.. the cover sorta got stuck and couldn't be opened.. and eventually it did... coz my bro used the spanner! =\ i love my bro!

grrrrr.. i'm trying to blog for the sake of not having to return to studying my MA slidesss... =( btw... i want to have a month long birthdayy celebration... coz i cant go out on my bdayy.. ahem~ will be at phuture on 30th thou.. =) but tts not counted... i still want my month long celebration! hehz.. coz the past 2 years.. my bdayy had been quietly spent.. i hope it can be more happening this time.. many many friends... bei n i were actually planning a couple of months back.. who knows.. d date we'd chosen was actually the day of zoukout..

ahh~ i'm getting nowhere... i want to go out with stinkyy n drink mos soup n eat mos chicken n watch movie!!~ walk ard... smOOooooKKeeee shisha... whatever... lead a decadent nocturnal life for a couple of weekss.. return to my pre-sch starrted lifee.. sob~ Academic life is killing me!!! =
okayy.. back to MA~

::Mugging::

2005-11-12T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hmm~ Using mich's lappy now.. can't believe I'm in school trying to mugg... thanks to mich's constant "nagging".. i'm done with 1CHAPTER!!! muahahaha.. well~ and thanks to everyone who's been askin me to blogg... i'm blogging.. yay!! coz at least i know there're a couple of ppl reading it!!

well~ had jazz band prac just now! i'm really really beginning to relaxx more and enjoyying it. hmm~ i've always liked jazz anywayy.. i've got no idea why i'm typing all d words w d an additional same alphabet behind.. coz of jaZZ maybe.. =\ i'm how corny..

this is the result of intensive mugging... or trying too hard to mug intensively.. exams are coming! projects are all due~ reports.. bla bla!! ahhhhh~ hehz.. read any uni ppl's blog and they'd all consist of the same lamentations.. erm~ is there such a word.. xiujuan??

tralalalala...hmm~ let me talk about smt interesting.. d other dayy.. i drove to school for the first time! and i missed the tiny turn which would lead to the carpark behind timbre.. supposed to be cheaper than d school's carpark. and then i travelled to make a turn at Meridien Hotel side.. and then.. i missed another turn.. and went all d wayy to bugis.. before reaching my desired carpark- which has no lot~ and ended up parkin in d sch carpark! =\ tt wasn't the sad part.. it was d fact tt i actually had to go through 4 FOUR!!!!! Bloodyy ERP before reaching!! =\ ahhhh~ how dumb!

hmm~ should i go smoke shisha later or go home sleep?? =( haiz~ i cant wait for this term to be over.. but neither do i want next term to begin.. coz... my timetable for the next term is so ultra... "Mambo-Unfriendly".. Pauline's new terminalogy for describing timetables...

I've got a 4dayy week - break on tues.. but out of the 4, Mon, Wed and Thurs = 8:30am class till 11:45am. HOW SUCKY!! but somehow.. at least it leaves me with one whole dayy to DO SOMETHING constructive.. like work and earn ALOT of moneyy.. =) makes myself happy by thinkin this wayy.. haiz~ y am i talkin about myself?? egoistic narcissist.. ahh~ i've got no pictures lately to post up.. hmm~ must take some pics of my SMU matess soon!! hehz.. must take real ugly ones as their debut on my blog.. muahahhaha... WANSHAN~~~

sob.. I miss ah bei.. haven't seen her for a couple of weekss.. she is such a bloody muggerrr... =\ and i haven't seen kevin too..

hmm~ mich's lappy is really hot now.. i'll continue blogging another time!! soon~~ =)

::procrastinator::

2005-10-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck in the middle of Management Accounting class... 2 hours have passed slowly.. and I'm although I'm supposed to have my presentation todayy, the prof doesnt seem to want to stop preaching on d test... =\ I got 7.5/20 for this test.. and i'm really proud of that.. so much so I want to say thanks to all the people who've helped me acheived that! Its Mich Chew... and Kenzo... coz without them, I'd genuinely dieeee for every single subject!! and my graduation would be in question!! =\ that's pretty horrendous even to think abt..

I think there's some serious problem w me.. I am never early.. punctual in the sense.. and I realised this problem is really affecting every aspect of my life... or at least.. academically, n it is bloody hell disturbing me! I hand up every single assignment LATE! like..

i start doing it on the day of submission itself, just like my MA ppt, i finished d slides at 2pm when the class starts at 330.. AS essay, handed up 3 days late... BGS essay, was doing it at 6am when i'm supposed to hand it up at 830am.. but lappy crashed and i ended up submitting it 3dayys late too.. econs.. finished it 8hours after the deadline.. MA test.. took it 4dayys after EVERYONE in the cohort taking MA had taken it.. bla bla.. EVERY SINGLE thing!!! SUCKS!!! WHats BLOoDY HELL WronG WitH ME??? =(

Prof finally stopped talking... phew~ last week, had sorta intensive jazz band rehearsals... well, at least its fri nite 8pm to 11pm.. sat, 430 to 630 and sunday frm 230 to 430.. haiz... it was fun.. but i feel that it is more than just about fun.. i am not good enough.. and i'm really sorta.. upset.. coz i procrastinate practising.. i depend on jun n candace.. i feel so f***ed up.. haiz..

there're alot of things i want to continue grumbling.. but too lazy..see see!! procrastinate again.. =\ haiz... but still... till then~~~~

2005-10-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

::think leo would want this pic::

2005-10-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

::i think my dad will go crazy if he sees this pic... easy for imagination to run wild.. well, we went to party world for the rest of the night... taken @ mandarin... from, left, xh, derrick, alfred, leo, kapo n david..::

2005-10-25T16:32:00.000+08:00

::BBC in Mandarin Hotel rm some time back.. well~ From left, xiaohei, kapo, alfred, derrick and leo... in case its not noticed, david is actually the round black thingy which leo had planted himself on::

2005-10-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

::PS n Me... taken at Kbox on her birthdayy.. was with there with xiujuan as well~~::

2005-10-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

::taken some time back... xiujuan n me at Mac outside Shaw.. my hair sucks!!::

::driving test::

2005-10-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

Tralalalala!!! I passed my driving test exactly 1 week ago!! MuahAHAHahaha~! well~ i wouldnt be able to afford another one if I failed... Broke Student!!

Congratulate me!!!

2005-10-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

::something from not too long ago.. taken at O-bar on wed nite.. from the left, its ken, me, jeremy and xiujuan... cool shot!! hehz.. stolen from ken::

2005-10-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

::stolen from xiu~ me and xiu at rav in june i suppose.. we had a bit much to drink.. and i was dead dead drunk tt night... taken just before i KOed.. well~ this is the life of a 19year old!! hehz..::

2005-10-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

::ive got no idea why in all my pics from this set.. my eyes are freaking small.. and presenting... serena, me and peishann!!::

2005-10-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

::this was taken i forgot when~~ before school actually started. me and serena at olio dome wheelock.. before going clubbing~ ladies nite!!! sob i miss phuture.. and i know i'm not the only one!::

2005-10-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

::since i've nothing much to do, let me share my grumpy with u guuys::

2005-10-14T20:22:00.000+08:00

::this is a couple of -BBC- ppl = leo, kapo, xiaohei n alfred. taken in d hotel room after i left::

2005-10-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

::and this leo.. has a face 85% to tt of what i want a vampire to be like.. taken hell long ago at cafe cartel cine... btw, i really didn't photoshop his skin.. smooth yea? hehz::

2005-10-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

::presenting the act cute, act chio, super bitchy babe i love hanging out with - gan sow kuen! hehe.. muacks!!::

2005-10-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

::if anyone ever remembers him~~ to JSSMB peeps... haha.. yea~ long lost senior.. finally met him a couple months back coz i persisted.. havent seen him for 5 loong years.. Ng Yun and me at Holland V TCC

2005-10-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

::this is usually what happens after mahjong.. there was once they were playing mahjong topless and i was thinkin how dead i would be if my dad ever sees the whole senario! hehz... and well~ these are d peeps i'd been hanging out with since.. 14?? heh::

2005-10-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

::a rare piece of collector's item!! presenting my bestie wong jingbei right after her nus rag day performance.. we were heading to A1 for curry.. and yoohoo ahbei!! A1!!!

2005-10-14T20:10:00.000+08:00

::oh well~~ this is hanping acting retard.. actually he doesnt need to really act.. just naturally soo.. hehz::

2005-10-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

::my daddy and me.. now~~ dont comment! hehz::

2005-10-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

::this was taken a loong loong time ago.. with my phone.. tt's why its so bad.. well~ i situated my cousins and psychoed them to blow d bubbles towards the light on the ground.. i love them!::

2005-10-14T20:07:00.000+08:00

::my brother and one of his retarded stunts.. he just had his prom yst.. and bugged me to go tailor a white suit for him~ buy him this buy him tt bla bla!! well~ luckily i wasnt the one who paid for everything::

2005-10-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

::this is self taken by dequan.. nothing better to do at my place.. and well~ he was telling me his dream about buying a lambo~ God Bless my dear friend!!::

2005-10-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

::the guys.. on the train.. on their way for night skating.. well~ i didnt join them.. long retired! hehe... not tt i was ever good enough anywayy::

2005-10-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

::darwin and me.. poor boy has turned botak and green by now!!::

2005-10-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

::me, alvin and darwin.. stood outside jurong point for bloody half an hour taking nonsense pics coz they were having fun with my specs - my friends::

::long lost blog::

2005-10-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

Its been another long long month.. I'm still stuck in school now - gsr 2.6 and its almost 8pm.. haiz~ tried to mug for bizlaw coz there's a test tml but well~ doesnt seem very effective.

this mid term break had been really hectic.. i have been coming back to school every single dayy although its seriously not very productive thou..

of course, i have been having fun too! went to o-bar on wed w xiujuan.. and met up w wilson dechao n fabian. pretty fun.. small wierdly shaped club/bar with absolutely cheap drinks. hung ard w jeremy and his friend, ken for a while too.. but sadly, i've broken the promise to myself to abstain from alcohol.. and got myself pretty dead drunk.. =(

went to momo for an hour last nite.. coz my friend sorta co-organised it.. and qianhui told me she's there alone.. but since she's actually got friends there, i left w jeremy for supper at river valley before KO-ing at home..

hmm~ i've taken alot of pictures these past few weeks, and everything's still in the mem card. sorry duddeeS~ i'll download them into my pc sooooon!

school life has been pretty okayy.. i joined the jazz band as vocalist and so far everything but my singin has been cool! at least i've gotten to learn a couple of jazz standards to pose myself off as a "jazz" person.. hehz...

other than that.. i joined stageit!, the smu drama club too.. and so far... everything has been fun! nice ppl most importantly...

btw, thanks to binghui~ for reminding me that my blog has been dead but at least someone is clicking on it sometimes! hehz.. will post some photos up later...

haiz~ i need some shisha~ haven't smoked tt in a while.. coz the previous times i went.. samar disappointed me.. =( tralalalalala~

mid-term realisation break.. okayy.. i shall post a couple of picts up and try to go back to bloody biz law... haiz~ i want to work.. so i can go shopping again =(

::tralala::

2005-09-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

I'm in school now.. actually in the midst of.. "creative thinkin" lesson. prof is asking us to do smt.. which happens to be my forte --> photography!! muahahahaha.. i havent blogged in a while.. had been super busy with school n going out!!

havent been studying.. still playing too much.. went for overnight mahjong on mon, KOed on tues, and yst i went zouk w alfred and met up w leo + the rest. and i joined jeremy after a while.. had much more fun!! hehz.. and coincidentally michelle knew jeremy too! i like it when stuffs like that happen.

and one of alfred's friend chris knows jeremy too.. yoohoo.. and ian + bryan + hanping were there too!! and yuda and micheal.. well.. this is what i like about clubbing..

yesterday i missed my girlfriends -- xiujuan, serena, qianhui and chrystle in particular.. so much.. nostalgic.. was walking past GUESS and along wisma and taka and I recalled our usual wed nites.. the shopping sprees, dinner, followed by ladies night.. what sweet memories!! and i called all of them up.. but well~ everyone's really busy w their new campus life now.. hmm~~ I MISS YOU GIRLS!!!

and i'd been thinkin about bella too.. tried contacting her for a few days in vain.. and finally received a msg this morning.. tt she's back from london!! PHEW!! i kept imagining she kenna murdered and chopped up and ahem.. ya.. i was worried... =
pluss.. yeah!! tml i'm meeting ah bei to go can cafe tml evening.. =) yay yay yay!!! and i can see my OG mates and biz camp mates too during the bash tml.. yoohoo!!

btw, fuck my eyes.. the other day, i was so tired coz i havent slept in say 40++ hours.. and i washed my face, soap got in and then i was too lazy to wash it out completely.. the next day my left eye became so painful.. this morning it was swollen.. now it's my bloody right eye.. the pain is killing me... =
well~ and qinhao told me yst tt jurong pri sch would be closing down =( i'm damn upset!! so.. calling all pri sch classmates... lets go back for a gathering and remember those days.. when we were younG!! holy shit i feel old... =(

i m suddenly quite down now.. coz i'm sorta.. hmm~ in some dilemma... with.. haiz.. someone tell me i am a good girl!!! =\

2005-08-17T04:07:00.000+08:00

::beginning w this pic, i look good in non of the any following pics.. look what i've become!! damn~ ::

2005-08-17T04:05:00.000+08:00

::qianhui and me!! hehz.. she's hot stuff ritey? and super duper sweet too! and ahem~ single too!!::

2005-08-17T04:02:00.000+08:00

::serena and yeli!! hehz.. nothing to say! =}::

2005-08-17T04:01:00.000+08:00

::serena and I! well, both of us didn't put make up this time. at all.. and its obvious she looks better than me.. i feel so bloody shitty old man!!::

2005-08-17T04:00:00.000+08:00

::Serena!~~always makes me feel like a damn "bo sim" person coz she's super "wu sim". the babes should know what i'm talking about!! muackz -- to serena!::

2005-08-17T03:59:00.000+08:00

::can anyone believe who i saw at momo?? CHUAN YELI!!! muahahahhaha.. she's bloody kickass man! 180degree transformation!! YELI way to GO!!!::

2005-08-17T03:58:00.000+08:00

::qianhui's pageant today! from left, cherie, qianhui, me, serena! everything but the company i've had sucks.. the girls rocks!::

2005-08-17T03:56:00.000+08:00

::2 retarded buddies of mine -- darwin n jolvin.. high on oxygen at 4am!::

2005-08-17T03:55:00.000+08:00

::me posing as dope fiend.. i wonder if people gets addicted to seesha.. well, the seesha there rocks!! at least i feel something! hehz... kev did a great job w this pic!::

2005-08-17T03:54:00.000+08:00

::blurred from the smoke. i dragged jolvin n kevin out for see sha on mon night. fantastic ambience at this arabian cafe restaurant! jolvin posing as dope fiend::

2005-08-17T03:51:00.000+08:00

::haha.. 2 eligible bachelors i met on my way to meet hanping.. any babes interested let me know ya!! Kenneth and Biaoming -- my long lost pri sch classmate::

2005-08-17T03:50:00.000+08:00

::haven't seen such a senseless game in a long time. david and leo::

2005-08-17T03:48:00.000+08:00

::derrick and alfred -- after skating.. btw, alfred is stoning.. w/t sleep for 72hours!!::

2005-08-17T03:46:00.000+08:00

::after more than 24hours w/t sleep, and waiting for other dudes at east coast.. this is how pathetic we looked.. leo and me!::

2005-08-17T03:43:00.000+08:00

::tard alfred.. hehz.. ::

::i think i'm crazy::

2005-08-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

the past week had been crazy for me! I think I must have really enjoyed their company, coz i've been out with alfred and leo literally every single day last wk!

and i think i sleep an average of 3 hours a day... coz i'd be awake for ard 48 hours, then sleep ard 7hours.. and then wake up n chiong another 48hours... hehz... quite fun! and the bad thing is, i'd been drinking every single nite since business camp.. our group was pretty alcoholic.. ehhz.. and after breaking camp, i went acid bar, alley bar, and bla bla bla..

cant really remember the sequence, but i went clubbing zouk and chinablack last week, mon n fri.. opened a bottle of red w kev n got real high at harry's at esplanade, smoked seesha at arab street, played a 38point game of bowling after 5years not playing but managed to maintain my pathetic average score, played a 70cents pool game, skating at east coast park, mahjong, supper, and alot of other crap i forgot...

well, today was cool.. starting from last nite i went to town to pass flora smt, saw biaoming, dennis n kenneth w their frenz at lido mac, met up with hanping for dinner, then coffee w jey for a while, then met up w alfred w hanping, then w hp's friends, then hung out w alfred, then went to look for alvin at makansutra, saw yanzhang, then went ktv w alfred n leo bla bla, then at 6am, went for breakfast n decided to go east coast skate.. then went home to shower n then to darwin's place for terry's bday, then watched charlie n the choc factory - made me very happy, and then now i'm back at darwin's place waiting to play mahjong..

i feel mad!! i hung out at east coast mac the entire night w leo on wed.. or is it thurs.. n did lunatic things like tt all week! man!! this is LIFE!! muahahhaaha

hope school wont start so soon.. mahjong is starting.. blog again soon.. oh yeah n i've got pics to post too!!

::long day::

2005-08-06T07:08:00.000+08:00

hehz~ i woke up awfully late at 6pm!! then i headed straight down by a 27bucks cab to Singapore Indoor stadium for the Festival of Praise. Damn~ Marcus had seats reserved for me, alfred and leo. but 3 of us didn't manage to make it in.. so well~ I am determined to try again on sunday! hehz...

then leo, alfred and me headed to cine for dinner, then coffee, and then to Onyx coz i wanted to support Jac for her party.. saw Yanzhang too! after that i joined sy, darwin, jolvin, yiqin, alvin and js after their ktv for supper...

now i'm back at home.. its 715 and i'm still online... have to go nus to watch bei later.. so don't think i'd be sleeping! hehz...

::tralalala::

2005-08-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

sehz!! my blog has been obsolete for 1 month!! ppl miss me?? =)

i'd been to the Circle Experience Orientation camp 2 weeks back.. just came back from the Business Towkay camp.. both also not bad.. shan't go into detail..

met alot of new friends!! hehz.. really liked my Orientation group! really rocks!! and the new campus rocks too!! very special sliding doors.. next time u guys free just go stand beside the glass thingy and watch the door slide up n down.. damn COOL!

eh.. and.. met up with serena, xiujuan and qianhui last week.. went zouk.. hmm~ it was great to see them after so long... i feel like clubbing again too.. but i'd been doing tt for the past 2 wed nites...

met up with bro kev a couple of times.. worked a little bit.. knew more new friends... hehz.. not bad.. but i'm having PMS now.. and super grouchy coz i'm tired and sleepy but its only 2am so i refuse to go to bed!

hmm~ btw, we were supposed to report at 9am for the business camp on tues. when i woke up, it was already 2.30pm! hehz.. so i joined the ppl at 4.30pm.. but blended in quickly coz they were really nice!

n sucks~ coz bbdc sent me a sms informing tt i just missed driving lesson today.. meaning i've wasted 60bucks.. and only then i realise what a huge favour binghui had done by learning driving with me.. constantly reminding me next day have lesson.. sometimes even when he doesn't have lessons w me, he will still remind me.. coz he schedules my lessons.. haha.. damn nice rite?!!

but a couple of unhappy incidents occured too.. and i refuse to face it... coz it'd make me an unhappy girl and it defeats my main objective in life! suddenly i feel like i am talking like the boy in "Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nightime". a little retarded but completely understanding what i am writing about. anyway, i like that book!

today,i met up with a seniorwhom i've not seen for half a decade - Ng Yun!! haha.. Jssmb ppl will know him yeah? especially the girls... i remember my mates were crazy over him.. mobbing him.. asking him for number bla bla.. haha.. well~ he's still as baby-faced... funny.. and super nice as usual.. special senior.. thing is.. he already graduated when i was in sec 1. so i'm a lucky junior. yeah! i feel younger!!

yeap.. and i got to know 3 new friends. alfred, leo and wayne from tp. well, i wonder if the know the leonard from UAN. hehz. well~ they're all nice people.. at least i really enjoyed hanging out with them! and leo bloody hell looks like a vampire!! muahahhaha...

hmm~ met up with cheryl, marcus and amelia too! really damn nice to see them..

met up with cheryl chew too!! went shopping and dining again! ahha.. and hanping joined us..

and it happens so that cheryl knows hp's army frenz and him(commando "han") through her boyfriend, who happens to be the bball number 6 from SAJC..

hmm~ my month had been good.. but sadly, piano exams in 3 weeks.. and i can't even play properly any one of the pieces.. which therefore spells doom!!

okie!! blog again soon.. i want to post up my pics soon.. well, btw, my facilitator for towkay camp looks like my bro's girl of 3 years! damn alike.. damn scary!! =\

::decadent::

2005-07-11T15:19:00.000+08:00

Oh my.. I led an absolutely decadent weekend rotting at home! Refusing to check my emails... I rotted the entire day at home on sat.. supposed to meet up with Qianhui n Jervois, or at least pop by indochine to support Jac n see hanping n desmond. and sorta left alvin stranded in town alone.. ahhh~ i'm a piggy..

sunday was pretty cool.. went to church after soooOo long! and then to ktv and great dim sum w leonard! saw MARCUS!! haha.. happy to see him.. not shocked to see that he became uglier.. oops! hehz...

n damn darwin asked me over to play mahjong.. n left me reading in his room with the 4 of them played outside.. y ask me over?! so i decided he owes me 100cups of teh peng!

i'm going to the smu orientation camp tml. I really dread it.. read vic's blog n i hope they will bring us do seasports too... coz I've tried banana boat and wakeboarding in the past.. loved it but never had a chance to do so again.. haiz.. i feel lazy and old.. too retarded to make frenz.

woke up this afternoon and felt a sense a panic.. i've got so much work to complete. i mean still in progress... and i've got to finish them before the camp! =( God Bless Me..

::bad bad news::

2005-07-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

Oh man!! I've got a BAD news and a SUPER ULTRA BAD news!!!

Bad News First: I FAILED my driving test.. damn~ pathetically.. well i admit i drove too fast.. too scared.. but there was this evil lorry!! argh~ =(

If failing wasn't bad enough, LOok at my SUPER ULTRA Bad news:

I've to bloody hell wait 3.5months for my next test!!! any idea 3.5months is how long? its like... (30days x 3) + 15 = 105days!!! damn~ not as if 1.5month wasn't long enough..3.5!!!! WHAT THE F***!!!

And on top of that, its another 250bucks wasted!! I make sure I bloody hell earn at least 10times what I spent on driving by the end of this year~

erm~ maybe 10times a little impossible... but still!!! at least 5 times!!!

hmph.. i'm going for a 2hour swim then I want ITALIAN today!! and then I want to work work n start making that 5 x total driving fees!!!

:::shopping n more::

2005-07-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

Hehz~ now that Kelvin actually reminded me that I haven't updated my blog, I guess I do still have people reading it! hehz...

I was pretty caught up with work for Odyssey - which is a GOOD sign! Clinched my first mini Bday deal.. hehz!! and made progress for a couple of other projects!

Checked out Momo with JeremyN (stands for the Jeremy I know thru Nel long ago) and we went for supper at geyland on thurs!

Went out with Bei then Alvin on fri.. had a great time catching up with him.. talking about the rest of the ppl frm the grp... coz they were all at wee's place BBQing and I refuse to go coz they'd talk about nothing but DOTA! damn~

Bella came back frm NZ and I met up with her a couple of times.. with Xiujuan and serena. On sat, we went to MOMO again coz the girls wanted to check tt place out. then xiu bella n me went RAV, where I got superbly drunk! which wasnt fun at all! LOUSY TEQUILA!! well~ i couldn't complain, coz i suppose yuda paid for all the drinks. FUnny things happened tt nite!! recall: bella + yuda. well~ xiu was damn high too.. michael's girl mich was just as high as us. but i am the lousy puking one! argh!~

had a pretty good week so far! went to bedok camp to sorta do something for the event.. bla bla.. and worked for a bit.. got my paycheck! WON the TV thingy [FIRST DATE].. thanks man~ all the ppl who actually voted for me!! and called me up to "congratulate" me.. making me feel even more embarressed than ever! hehz... okayy la.. i'm happy~ coz there's 400bucks! who wont be~?

and yup! I had a shopping spree on fri b4 alvin came! i was PMSing and in a foul mood... So i spent 200bucks on shoes in say.. 30mins!? I checked out the sale at Mango.. spent 60bucks on some redundant tops and a pair of jeans. value for $$ though! then i checked out Nine West and bought the pair of heels I liked only around 65%.. but it was on a 20%sale~ which makes it $120 instead of $150! then i went up to JWEST and decided to fall in love with this leather sandals.. I got the size and spend 80bucks on it. well~ its on a 10% sale~!

i sorta regretted spending like that after that... but its good to spend like a rich tai tai once in a while. I called Jolvin out on sunday to watch a movie w me... darwin n terry came too... sob...

nobody loves me!! i want a boyfriend... PS: this whining will end once my period is here! and be back in say 3 weeks time!

well~ i am going to thailand again. I'm bringin my brother with me this time.. he needs a break! so do I! =)

::bestie bella::

2005-06-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

there's been some over-hyped news reports on bella lately . for that, i've sorta endured a couple of lectures from relatives and parents bla bla.. about me being with her.. as a close friend and for standing up to her.

just read a couple of blogs which discussed about bella's appearance on the papers. many which are apprehensive towards her n everything mentioned about her. and i feel, slightly - which is an understatement, unjustified for her.

having been a close friend since the start of JC and seeing her morph into whoever she is, bella has been and will continue to be a fantastic friend. she is extremely meticulous, paying attention for example, even to the bit whereby Michelle actually likes choco brownies w extra chocs n actually makes special ones for her.

well, she's not exactly sensitive to people's feelings, which haven't really affected me much, but she definetely has a genuine personality and a heart which could and have loved more than anyone whom i've known could love.

perhaps her capacity to love, and forthrightness towards displaying it may appear to many as brazenness. But from both a friend's and impartial's point of view, candor would be the word i'd use instead.

i feel that the masses' antogonism towards her as a person, her blog, her photos, or her life, only reflects how narrow their view on love is, that they're unable to comprehend bella's leviathan capacity to feel and appreciate love. She does not "sleep around" therefore, doesn't qualify as a slut. She never does things which she don't want to and it includes sleeping with people whom she doesn't feel for, unlike many wantons and philanders of our age (there are!!).

i think, the most likely reason for many people to actually not comprehend bella's actions is because they don't have a capacious heart to love like her. many bear contempt (think about the bitch you'd been bitching about 5mins ago), resentment(why can't they do this/that? why must they be like bla bla) and hostility(complete shut down to ideas that you've never been exposed to). she is open(honest), genuine and warm. I've never known her disliking anyone, nor really bitch about anyone. She accepts ideas, people's opinion (maybe not exactly humbly but she listens and CHANGES) and she is open about her feelings. People should stop bitching about her and maybe try to start accepting the fact that someone in singapore is ACTUALLY different from the rest and stop trying to screw her life for now.

and regardin her nude pics, she actually posts the ones worthy to be printed and hung on the wall. its not about her being A or THE nude model. look at the artistic value of the picture, the stylist's hardwork in mashing the oreo cookies and cutting up the fruits, bella's own effort in actually PLANNING for every shoot and the photographer's effort in putting the lights the way it should be and capturing at the right perspective.

its is a work of art. not some crappy DIY home made hilton video. Demeaning her nude photos is equivilent to belittling the effort of every single person who has put effort and professionalism into the shoot.

of course, bella and i share plenty of difference regarding moral values bla bla etc... but ain't that a characteristic of every relationship, interracial, inter-national? well, i believe people will like bella.. if there's a chance for them to actually know her.

filthy bitch

2005-06-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

i feel like a f***in bitch now.. i feel damn bitchy and am rather pissed w myself for tt!

i'd better not write whatever's on my mind... coz i might end up being murdered tml! damn~

::tralalala::

2005-06-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

traalaalaa~~

::PPL i met up with this week::
Kevin
Jingbei
Jason
Darwin
Hanping
Jolvin
Janet
Gina
Qianhui
Andrew
Terry
Alvin
Shiyuan
Yannie
Jiansheng etc

::New Friends this week::
Er Cong
Jonathan
Romeo
Leonard
Carol
Lynn

::Things I Bought this week::
=Esprit top - seventy=
=2 Car Magazines - thirty=
=Giordano tops - fifty=
=Zara Denim Mini - seventy five=
=Milano Fashion CD - fourty=

::Food n Drink Places I went this week::
Siam Kitchen
Crystal Jade x 2
Suki Sushi
Yoshinoya x 2
Spinelli's
MY OWN MINESTRONE SOUP!
Acid Bar
Phuture/Zouk
bla bla?~

TAD DA~~~ My week in point form! - okayy~ i'm showing off my not so fantastic expenditure.. hehz =)

::clubbing is fun when...::

2005-06-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

clubbing is fun when u know loadss of ppl there!! haha.. i met up w chrys in town yst b4 meeting kelvin. i bought a new wallet from DFS - finally~ and then chrys left to meet her frenz. so kel n i went down to wisma to look for qianhui n the three of us went for a pretty authentic jap dinner at taka~ then qianhui left for work and kel - who asked me out for shopping~ felt like sleeping! damn~ lousy stamina!

smt worth mentioning - ever imagined having a bed, tt sort whereby u run and plop right in the middle and sink right in! cushy cushy and wrapped in 100% Egyption Cotton with 1000 threadcount bedsheets accompanied with numerous fluffy pillows~?? I saw tt sort of bed in taka yst!!! the king size costs an exhorbitant $7500++ bucks!!! but i swear i will get that one day! and the Bedsheets, with the specifications mentioned above, costs ard $1500 (after a 50% discount)!! n tt! ~ i'll consider getting! haha.. crazy price! the exact idea of living in debauchery!~~ muahahaha

well~ after shopping, we went indochine. i was contemplating whether or not to go coz i dun have anyone to go w. but decided for it coz kel said he felt like gg n i suddenly felt like it too~ i joined andrew + hanping + paul and their frenz whom i've seen somewhere. this SA girl Caihui was w us too~ kel n his fren adrian joined us. andrew n i wanted to open a bottle. n we did, with 4 other ppl.

its such a tiny tiny world~ coz I saw my long lost pri sch classmate biaoming there as well~ and i was surprised to see him with dennis-my sec sch council senior, and kenneth-yuda's fren. haha. and then.. biao seems to know andrew.. and so on, ppl u know knowin ppl u know. yannie and her girlfren joined us for a while, and it seems to be the largest bunch of JSS ppl in one place at tt time. yanzhang and sancia was there too~ sat ard w yz and kel~ kel literally sat down there n stone the entire nite~

hmm~ let me think.. tall jeremy was there too.. jacqueline and K came too and was w us coz K and Hanping etc are all commandos.. n the fun part is, Dennis + Biao + kenneth's table was beside ours.. and lucky me get treated to drinks both sideS! muuahahahaha.. tt's the best part!

n the UAN ppl came to perform and I saw Gina and this guy i forgot his name, who taught me dancing! n Omar was there as well~ hmm.. there was really too many guys at the party but well~ i had fun.. it was one of the best clubbing exp i've had!~ sufficient alcohol n frenz~ hehz~ n the bonus was, i wasn't exactly afraid of gettin drunk coz Shiyuan + darwin + jiansheng + elyn + bla bla the entire bunch of ppl were at lido! hehz~ i'd be safe coz they're within safe proximity..

the night before, i went Chinablack with darwin, jolvin and alvin coz it was darwin's fren'z bday. the music was really freaking good tt nite i must admit! tt's a very good dj.. but the crowd~ still.. turns me off... =( bro kev was at zouk.. n i wanted to go so badly.. but =( broke~~ n i cannot Pangseh!!

went out with jervois to watch magadascar(finally) today!! was having dinner at cartel when we saw yanzhang n his ex-kelly. n i bought a denim mini frm zara after 2 weeks of consideration! hehz~ i'm a sensible spendthrift! din really like the movie..

yeah! i'm feelin happy again! n i dun wan to feel sad again too...

::long time no see::

2005-06-09T15:31:00.000+08:00

i've not blogged in awhile. haiz~ i never knew PMS could last so freaking long! 2weeks and still feeling bad!!

went little india for lunch last fri. met up with bei on sat and then all night out with the boys... spend my sunday wasted coz rotting's the only activity that arouses my interest. but have to go to grandma's house as usual. while my aunts n uncles when dating~ i am burdened w the responsibility of caring for my kiddo cousins.. supposed to bring them kite flying and playing bubbles. but i insist tt there's no wind so no kite flying. actual fact, i don't want to sweat. but bubbles are pretty. they've always been my favourite!

monday~ i spent my day filming for this new variety show called First Date. so dont' be surprised if you see pretty me on TV. I went simply coz I'd get 200bucks for 1 day of filming with free food and feeling like a star. and if i do win the weekly poll, its an additional 200. anyone else wants to go? Michelle Chia is hot and fun! Thanks to Rebecca for loaning me her apartment so we could go there to cook! and LOve bei to bits for coming at the end of the day to help me complete one of the bloody mission.

tuesday, was piano and rotting. and more PMS. stupid course by catworkz.. cancelled on me last minute. Else I'd have been able to make it to jervois's POP. not tt i'm keen to revisit tekong, but more on the fact tt he actually seemed excited to invite us there. spoke to chrys for 1.5hours on the phone - longest record for me since dunno when. n dequan called to ask if i think he should keep long or short hair. zzz... like..short la! duh! n i went for dinner w him. went back to the same coffeeshop 2 hours later for supper w darwin. elyn n sy joined us. SY and I stayed over at darwin's place - coz i was too lazy to walk home, as usual.

woke up at noon on wed and i was hungry. so i dragged the 2 piggies down to eat w me. Chrys is damn nice... to actually make her way down to Jurong Point from Buona Vista... Met up with her for late lunch.. really really fun talkin to her. then went for dinner w my grandma, uncles n cousins. then came back, watched tv and then went for odyssey meeting.

damn~ i realised they printed my contact number wrongly! really fucked up! for 40cents a bloody piece i get wrong info. i could really get suwei to screw lawrence! damn!

::in n out::

2005-06-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

nobody loves me. tell me its not so.

sob.

2005-05-30T01:05:00.000+08:00

::well~ for people who haven't seen me for a while~ here's a picture for u guys to admire! muahahahahah.. taken in the hotel room during my trip to bangkok. cant wait to go there again!! anyone game for it??::

::heroin::

2005-05-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

Silly sleepy piggy xiujuan. Clever me to decide tt she might be sleeping and call her b4 i leave home!! spent the entired day at home sleeping n sleeping in the end. hehz~ i feel super healthy now! =)

something worth mentioning about yesterday~ I was beside the pool where my little cousins were playin at Chloe's 3year old party. I saw Tavis overturned in his little float tt has this silly palm tree attached to it. His head was in the water n feet in the air! Couldn't explain how petrified I was then~ well.. so I jumped into the little pool and carried him out, forgetting that I was fully dressed - WHITE pants some more~ n most importantly... MY PHONE IS IN MY POCKET!! But amazingly... hehz~ O2 really has a good cover.. It's waterproof! hehZ~ so i saved Tavis without damage done to my dear Mini~~ hehz~ I'm a heroin!!

n its really fun just looking at those kiddos play. Chloe had a 3-D Barbie Cake... and I find it amusing.. coz the boys were all going "Put the candles into the body.. so the barbie will die.." and stuff like "cut the head.. cut the stomach~ Kill the barbie!!" haha~ BOYS~~!! I think I'd prefer daughters when I have kids in future =)

yeah n i saw my aunt's neighbour's 3 little sons. ALL damn freaking good looking!! haiz~ y aint they grown up by now? =( hehz~

OOokie~~ before I forget again~~ ANYONE GOING TO SMU BUSINESS?!??!? haiz~ coz i think i'm going to accept that.. but i seriously have no idea who's going to go there~ and I feel so lonely~~ I'm really lazy.. thinkin about having to make friends all over again.. and to go through stupid orientation shitty camps.. argh~~

so bored now~ cant wait for bei to come back frm china.. so i could call her up in the middle of the night to go to the playground with me. sob~~

::tiring week::

2005-05-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

hmm~ ANNOUNCEMENT!!! I've COMPLETED my driving!! muahaha.. my test date is on the 8th JULY!! i cant wait!! hmm~ i'm so freaking proud of myself la~ I started on 26th April and completed everything on the 26th May! muahahah.. well~ i must show this off.. including the 2 compulsory stupid but fun auto-car lessons... i had only 20 lessons!!! muahahha... meaning.. i took only 18 lessons wor!! ain't i a genius? muahahhaa i'm going to be a racer!~ hehz~ i'm dreaming~~

well~ this week's damn tiring. went to work everyday. woke up at ard 8am everyday.. slept ard 3am. tues i stayed over at dequan's place w shiyuan as well coz i was helpin him w some skate club stuff n too lazy to cross the street to go home. slept at 3am. wed went clubbing w qianhui and her fren cherie. met alvin n jolvin and jeremy- nel's fren. dinner w serena - thank God for her else i'd be stranded alone fer 3 hours. met up w Chrystle for a while and saw magnus as well. slept at 5am tt morning.

had driving lessons and all and i cabbed to bbdc every morning. damn~ i want to watch movie! n have coffee and earn money! muahahaha... and DRIVE!

cant wait to get my license.. hey people~ imagine me driving!! muahahhaha~

::ouch::

2005-05-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

just had my internet reconnected. nothing spectacular happened last week.. was buryin myself in work n driving - damn tiring coz i'm holding 2 jobs.. usually i'd start drivin lessons at 950 to 130. then go to work from 2pm to 6pm. then work in the evenin frm 7pm to 2am. pay's all damn good but my skin's suffering... argh...

i had fri nite for granny's bday n chill out w qh after tt. aunt crystal went Goodwood park to look fer her frenz who're partying n she dropped me off there. she is one huge party lady - uncle nicky's not in town ma~ hehz. well.. sat i literally nua at home d entire day. but it made me a happier girl. tv therapy.

i was rotting at home on sunday until it was time to go grandma house again. n aunt crystal treated everyone fish n co. then i headed gallery hotel to meet desmond n hanping n sajc paul n some ns pal of theirs. cocolatte really suck. although i was d only girl again - it was pretty fun! crapped throughout. hanping n me cant stop criticising every single thing abt cocolatte.

d drink coupon was for 1 standard drink. n when we asked what does standard means. d waitress told us only bourbon coke, stella beer or orange juice/fruit punch! what the hell~ n i cleverly ordered beer while the opp. sex w lower iq ordered bourbon coke - which turn out to b only coke. guess the waitress missed out bourbon~~ then we ordered another tray of Sex on the Beaches. yeah~ n indeed there's only the beach, no sex. plain cranberry juice. eew

n the music... we suspect they play all their music thru an ipod and hire some actor to pose as a dj. coz he literally plays the entire of every song. oOo~ n there was a huge fat couple making out behind desmond.. rubbing their bellies n pretending to be horny. damn disgusting. but there're a couple of hot girls dancin on d podium.. nice entertainment. oh ya~ n i saw lionel frm sajc too. desmond KOed during supper.

i went to have coffee w bei at jurong pt today. she left for china alr. i miss her. sob. hehz~ she's using a O2phone.. n now I've got a O2 Mini.. damn fun! after tt i met up w jervois. saw Kay n Jac-C at cine too. we went for lunch n movie.. ns guys r freakin poor things. everytime i msg them.. has got smt to do like.. when u booking out? or what time u have to book in again? haiz~ n now~ half my guy frenz n ns. in another year... excluding my new guy frenz to be (frm uni), all my guy frenz would b in ns alr - w/t jolvin, dequan, shiyuan, alvin, js they all.. sob~~~ i'd be so freakkin lonely. not tt i'm not now. haiz~

haiz~ sob. i think i'll go cry ltr.. coz i feel like crying. hmm~ i wish i have a stinky too. sob.. i want to fall in love too... unfair.. i want to pick myself up like jey did too..
damn~ y do i keep thinkin abt such stuffs now? what a waste of time! hmph..

2005-05-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

::end off by posting a pic of me n marcus. wanted to post the 1 w his screwed hair but i look ugly init too. hehz~ at coffee club last fri, b4 gg to phuture. last min clubbing. cant believe i really came down to town from home to go clubbing.. ? i'm crazy::

2005-05-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

::he was compelled into doing this. n it's a really badly taken pic.

2005-05-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

::i was takin picts of yuda's car on mt faber when a horde of tourists joined me. haha. everybody like pretty things::

2005-05-14T13:20:00.000+08:00

::this is yuda's slk. i like this part of the car most. actually the gear stick n steering wheel. remind me tt jason's pretty m3's gearstick + steering wheels pic r in my lost k500. sob.::

2005-05-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

::this is chrys n me. tt day i was actually wearin this orange long sleeve top over my tube coz tt one is abit see thru. n chrys stripped me la coz i was actually odd 1 out - wore too much.::

2005-05-14T13:16:00.001+08:00

::hehz~ yuda n xiu. hmm~ hard to comment on this~::

2005-05-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

::this is xiu n chrys. i think both of them look really pretty in this pic!! ::

2005-05-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

::this is me,xiu and chrys n extra yuda. i seriously dunno wad he's doin in this pic. hehZ~ i'm actin pretty!!

2005-05-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

::xiujuan~ hehz~ taken by peishan during our 1st kbox trip loong ago~ heh::

2005-05-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

::this is how they actually sell puppys at chatukchak. REAL CUTE pups~ it extends all the way - cant really see where the end of the street is la::

2005-05-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

::wanted to get one of this for somebody. i dunno y but binghui came to my mind when i saw these. but i din in the end. looks too offensive. haha::

2005-05-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

::well~ this is common sight during d water fest. truckloads of ppl carryin guns n barrels of water. pretty interesting actually::

2005-05-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

::oh well~ this hot ass is actually a S-HIM~~ really gorgeous in person. its too far away n my zoom sucks~::

2005-05-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

::look at what d unle is doing while preparin our food~~ cant expect much hygiene in thai seriously. but great thing - they've got less roaches than in sg::

2005-05-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

::some pics frm my thai trip - i think this pic is deviant-worthy but i'm too lazy to post it up there~ ::

::past few days::

2005-05-14T12:57:00.000+08:00

past few days was all w/t more than 4 hrs of slp. clubbed on wed w xiu + nana + qianhui + angela + peishan. went chinablack first b4 heading zouk. Jolvin was thr too! well~ zouk was exceptionally crowded, not to mention phuture. saw a couple of ppl - jason n magnus + jeremy (nel's fren) + micheal n yuzhi (it took me awhile 2 realise tt he's nt yuda - coz he's cuter than yuda. hehz) + zhizong (jey's pri sch fren, who happened to b qianhui's ex) what a small small world~~

i was pretty stranded after partyin - outside zouk, coz my frenz just left me to get their frenz, they presumed i'd be w jolvin or smt but he's still inside. it was pouring n i felt odd la. luckily i hardly drank. hmm~ must mention this~ i bought a tray of sex on the beaches + 7 horrible tastin margaritas + 2 beers + 4 tequila shots. but really~ i hardly drank.

slept at 6. woke up at 9 for drivin lesson. KOed!! after drivin i met up mummy at jp for lunch. then went home n nua 1 hr then went nirvana to work!~ ended at 2am n we went 4 supper n slept at ard 5am... i woke up at 920am d next morning. my drivin lesson is at 950 la~ i was like 5mins late. then... this time i really couldn't drive properly - luckily i'm alr at stage 3 (in circuit). after lesson i went to work - meeting someone abt RWS at tanjong pagar. then i met up w kev n kit in town at 6plus. had dinner at phil's steakhouse n some wandering ard then home! DAMN tired~~

i was so tempted to club when i saw ppl on d streets - prepared to go club. some bash at dblo n chinablack. msged a couple of ppl but no one replied la.. i felt so unloved. sob. but i was glad i went home.

handwashed all my clothes - my laundry basket is like 5 days or 1 week old. haha stinks man~ all the clubbin smell~~ but all CLEAN now! then i repacked my wardrobe coz half my clothes + all my new clothes are sprawled all over my house - living rm, bro's rm, my rm on some chair, on my piano. everywhere la. i wanted to do some logistics, so i know what i've lost. hehz. but din in the end. i only know i have ALOT of clothes now!! first time i'm thinkin this way.. n i'm HAPPY!! but the thing is, even when u have alot of clothes, u tend to wear back the same old few, coz u like them soo much... hmm~

then i packed my accessories. hehz~ i did smt really ingenious. i've got the black ikea box and i hung all my earrings to the sides of it. so they wont be tangled up n i can look n choose more easily. muahahah. clever rite?

suddenly today, i dunno what's on except for indochine tonite. sob. i want to go out n shop!! someone~ go shoppin w me!! =(

::uni::

2005-05-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

received the acceptance letter frm NUS into FASS. well~ wasnt really pleased coz i only want to get into business. so at least... i've still got SMU n NTU... n needless to say, I'm choosing SMU!

I think i'm pretty dumb~ coz NTU is really right beside where I'm stayin. and SMU's the furthest. AHhh~ gives me a reason to work harder n then get some place to move out!~

went for some 60over bucks haircut yst at hairfolio. long story as to y i bear to part w tt 60bucks. impulse also. i love the haircut thou.

I'm really excited about the upcoming things i've gotta do.. n the people i'm going to meet! damn fun.

btw, bei n me found a night job at some pub at duxton road. d place really suck. but coz its literally empty = no work, d boss is nice n flexible, d pay is 9 per hr n increasin to 10bucks in 10days n we can work whenever we want to n plus tpt home~ y not? plus tpt, i'd get like.. $73 per wkdays n $82 per wkend. i intend to work like.. 3 - 4 days a wk, at least i could get an additional thousand per mth! muahahah. i cant believe how much i'm earning in total rite now every month. plus this shit job, i feel like a mini rich kid. hehz~

heard frm my frenz, jey might alr have had a new girl. i'm nt surprised. but feelin damn unjustified.

::immature::

2005-05-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

i feel tt i m really immature to handle alot of stuffs alone. but i hate to admit that i'm weak.

n i end up screwing up alot of things. i feel as though i am losing my friends. i feel so fucking lonely.

i hope this is just another moodswing. tt i really.. think too much.

sob.

::my week::

2005-05-07T18:51:00.000+08:00

oh okay. havent blogged for a while. was procrastinating as usual. did alot of SHOPPING this week. Spent ard 700bucks this wk. Bought Slippers frm Aldo, a bitchy mango top (i din know wads on my mind then), 3quarts n top frm mango, Godiva 4 mumma, Gucci Rush 2, SE T630 coz i lost my phone and erm~ i really cabbed a hell lot. Plus clubbing yst, cab + cover alr 50bucks n bla bla la.. Do feel damn broke but there's this thingy in me telling me to go shopping. damn~ n i'm tempted to get a Polo Ralph Polo tee coz of xiujuan. n this CK top... damn~ btw, i love shopping w xiu!! haha

I went for 3 driving lessons this week. Pretty fun! I drove all the way to Bukit Timah yst la - coz my instructor was half asleep! haha. so i just went straight all d way. frm BBDC wor!! muahahaha. but tt toopid binghui still have more chops than me. haiz~

went kbox w xiu + serena + qianhui on thurs evening. they're all damn nice la. i got to sing alot coz of tml's competition, which i really haven't decided to go or not or what to do. I'm so dead.

yst i went to meet bei after my driving lessons. hung ard in jurong point n talked cock a while. then i headed dequan's house coz shiyuan's there to teach me singing. and i feel asleep while they were watchin anime afterwards. when i woke up at ard 930 by kelvin's msg asking whether i was at chinablack, i had this sudden urge to go clubbing.

so i msged xiujuan. n she said okay. serena cant come out thou - coz i was a little late in telling her. =( n i contacted chrystle but she din want to go. n yuda told me he'd be clubbin w micheal n 2 other frenz so xiu n i joined them at zouk. we were there ard 1am. i went home to change n took a cab down to town to meet xiu n marcus. marcus's hair sucks! shall post the pic up soon.

i saw magnus outside wine bar. n i din know who he was until he told me i looked familiar n jason popped out from behind the tall magnus. n we conversed for a while on smt superficial - anw, i find his hair colour extremely sucky n beng-y now. maybe to match his beng evo9. hehz. i'm such a mean poke.

well~ joined yuda they all at wine bar. they were all pretty high by then la. at phuture, it was really pretty fun. i think even if there's only me n xiu it'd be fun too - maybe not. coz there'd b no free drinks. hehz. well, this drunk kenneth guy got into a fight w a bunch of losers n poor xiu got punched twice!! clubbing ended there. i was pretty disappointed =( its like. 4am alr surprised how time flies.

went to newton. whao~ i loved the car ride. damn fast!! hehz~ yuda drove his lancer yst n fetched everyone. damn fun squashing at the back seat. xiu's BIGGER so she sat at d front. hehz!! cant explain. after droppin all the guys, xiu wanted to go watch sunrise. but we din in the end. he din know where to go, so xiu n me ended up at his place. n fell asleep but woke up at 7again to go home. i KOed until almost 2pm. haha.

then yuda came n we had lunch at this roadside abalone noodle stall, even jay chou had been there surprisingly. haha. n food was good. i had to go wisma to get smt frm qianhui. tt girl's really damn sweet la. even w the new braces. haha. i dunno y - but do i seem like a les?? now i'm home. after bloggin i've to go my granny house celebrate mother's day. yeah!! more good food!!

::sob::

2005-05-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

i've had a pretty upsetting wkend... i've drank way too much, said wrong stuff i guess, lost my phone n feel too bad abt everything.

on sat - ppl pls dun laugh at me. becca got me n des into the channel u superstar search~ n so not to let her down, we went fer the audition. nt interested in gettin in. des passed d audition b4 me - n it was my turn to go in next. i held on to the lyrics while i sang coz i obviously dun remember them - n sounded bad. but d judges were fun - criticising me abt everything.. like my mismatched outfit - hmph wads wrong w feeling comfy... yeah but i got the green light and got thru anyway... so.. I've bloody hell got to SING IN PUBLIC @ IMM this coming sunday @3pm. damn~ come support me ah!

then i went to town to meet bei coz she's headed towards d loreal sale - wads new. haha. i bought brow liners + mascara x2 each for my mumma la.
then i went home to try to sleep...

met up w desmond again in the evening coz he's got 2 free media passes to the david tao's mini "recital" i'd call it at expo... he INTERVIEW DAVID TAO tt afternoon!! i'm envious. anw, tt mr tao can really sing fuggin well!!! n desmond is really, epitome of good nice guys la. hah.

then i m supposed to meet up w chrystle n her bf n yuda. n i went raffles to wait for yuda to pick me up. well~ SLK aint tt comfy seriously... abit too low.. n i dunno.. the leather's pretty hard... have to sit uprite to drive when the seat is inclined back coz d seat's really low. well~ maybe coz i'm short. tt's y it affects me so la.

went to a lousy pub - qinhao condemned it! haha... called chocolate along clarke quay. n we drank la - of course. then play "cai chuen" - n i admit i'm damn lousy. n i drank fer yuda coz he's drivin n i dun want to die so young n pretty. i want to die old n still pretty! n i lost my phone. its really bad la. bad things happened in a bad club. anw, when chrys n i were queuing 4 d 1 n only toilet - n when the queue became 6 person long, the bouncer knocked on d door - n 2 ppl came out la. we got to know tt - tt fat ass crappy girl was giving a blowjob. its really her JOB - 5bucks per ejaculation.. tt's wad they say. damn~ pathetic. isnt it "free or nothing"?

sunday i was stuck w yuda fer the whole day as well - not tt he's bad company la. but i was just not feeling good... alcohol... bad!!! n my waist is 2.5inches thicker... drank again at the party at their fren's place. i felt out. but i din care. we finished 2 bottles of wine and half a bottle of chivas.

b4 d party @ pretty carribean @ keppelbay, yuda drove up mount faber - coz both of us haf never been there b4. n i insisted i wanted to take a pict of his car. haha. n he started taking pics of scenery while i took his car. n a bunch of cheena tourists came by n TOOK PICTS OF HIS CAR! haha. quite funny. n it became hilarious when the tourists started takin picts WITH HIS CAR. damn wierd!! haha

hung out w yuda the today as well.. pretty much 2.5days consecutively. went ard to look fer phone, watched triple X2 n he'd to go back OCS camp, which is near my place, so yeah.. on the way la.

n i hate gg MIA. realised there'r so much stuff awaitin me to complete. n i felt completely irresponsible. i'm just not d sort. i could never be jason. which is a good thing - bei mentioned. haha. nothing against jason la - he's nice.. tt's wad chrys described him as too.

suddenly i realise everyone seem nice to me, nt tt they must be nice towards me thou. btw, xiujuan is the president of Desperate School Girls club... n i'm the vice. n i presume - w/t her permission, tt we're recruiting.. haha... so if any girlies interested let us know la.

btw, i just concluded, tt xiu is the silliest girl i've ever known in my life. she is all abt stinky n viggo. haiz~ in a ridiculous manner - especially towards stinky. haha.

i'm upset now. really upset. i'm not happy... but i want to be. sob. hope swimmin w bei tml helps...

::lost phone::

2005-05-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

okay.. damn.. i lost my phone again.. but i thought i blogged and posted an entry to inform ppl - like xiu n serena n whoever reads my blog la... and now i realise tt entry is not on my blog!?? i just realised tt i posted on the wrong blog.. damn

it really sucks... this entire weekend is pretty bad for me.. not pretty.. its damn bad! and i went MIA for 2 days... and now i'm back.. it sucks... not tt i had fun missing in action... argh!!! fuck....

2005-04-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

::yeah~ n the finale is a self portrait!! taken in the ralph lauren shirt my aunt gave me.. it's TOO HUGE.. so it became my pyjamas.. hehe.. i get giddy ironing it!! haha.. haha... but its so comfy - dun be jealous!! muahahah::

2005-04-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

::okie.. this is the retarded series.. haha.. this is me.. in case ppl cant recognise.. ::

2005-04-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

::this is retarded me and peishan.. hehz~ the only toopid face i know how to do... ::

2005-04-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

::tt's me giving a blowjob!~ haha.. cant imagine tt.. thank God xiu is a pretty good photographer la.. i din look like i was really givin a blowjob.. haha::

2005-04-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

::blowjob series - haha.. this is how xiujuan would look when she is giving a blowjob::

2005-04-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

::them.. at mos burger.. i'm abit sick of seeing them alr.. but i realise i took alot of pics!~::

2005-04-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

::this is retarded xiujuan.. NOTE HER FEET!!::

2005-04-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

::this is still us.. still in the toilet... ::

2005-04-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

::this is xiujuan - acting candice.. ahem~ no comments::

2005-04-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

::i have absolutely no idea i was so extremely PUNY!~? sob.. its damn sad.. i'm so small.. i feel... so insignificant... ::

2005-04-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

::ME!! tt's ME!! trying to be myself!!::

2005-04-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

::actually i sorta like this picture. i think its very very pretty!! dun u guys think so?::

2005-04-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

::oOo this was taken so long ago too.. chronogically-this is latest la... sorta a MINI class outing.. bella left already and mich is going to come.. hehz... ::

2005-04-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

::tt's xiujuan.. n her absolutely mis-matched outfit. look at the skirt n the top n the BAG n the SHOES??? its so bad... haha::